Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Wow, that was short-lived.

I thought I was going to be blogging a lot once I got this, but I'm not... probably cause nothing exciting is really happening to me on a daily basis. Maybe THAT'S why only married people blog. haha.

Sea World finally called me back to rehire me. I think they called me on the 15th and I didn't have orientation till the 20th, and training is this Saturday, the 30th. I'll know then when my first day is.

The mission papers kind of got put on hold for awhile, but hopefully they'll start up again soon. I've filled out all I need to, it's just getting a doctor's appointment set up--and that works with everyone's schedule--that's the problem. I have to be home to watch Kimberly when my mom is taking Sarah to the doctor, among other things. Aaaand, I kind of want my mommy there. Except for the visits I made in Rexburg, I've never gone to the doctor without my mom. I guess she's something like a security blanket for me.

Sometimes I don't like the fact that I'm still SO attached and dependent on my family. People my age are out on their own, married, babies... I was on my own 1 1/2 months ago too so I guess I shouldn't be complaining it's not like I haven't moved out... and maybe that's the problem: I'm used to being independent but now I'm back under  my parents' roof, obeying their rules, having to work around their schedule.... I don't know. I feel babied, but I guess there's not very much time left until I have to be a bone-ified adult so I should enjoy the babying. I just wish I had a little more room to breathe. Although they have loosened their strictness a lot since I moved out.

My dad and I have decided to make this summer a "Biggest Loser" summer. We both want to lose 50 pounds. That's gonna be tough, but I think it's possible. This is an outline of what I'd like my day to be like... sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't, but maybe if I write it down I'll start living it daily:

(times change based on my work schedule, but this is the basic idea):

7:30 Wake up, eat breakfast
8:00 Read scriptures, study "Preach My Gospel"
9:00 tend to whatever business I have that day. ie, work, getting Adobe to refund me the $2000 they stole so I can use my checking account again (long, frustrating story that should have been resolved a week ago)
1, 2 or 3:00 go to the gym, swim and do strength training/weight lifting for at least an hour total
Later: Come home and eat lunch... and whatever else needs to be done at home.
6:00 Make/eat dinner...
8:30 go to the gym with my dad and run for at least 45 minutes.
10:00 family time, and after everyone goes to bed, facebook/journal/blog writing time.
12:00 bedtime.

That's the goal. We'll see how work fits in with that... Right now that's just my unemployed schedule/the days I don't work. SO... good luck to me, eh?

I really want to look good. I look back at the pictures of myself in middle school/high school and it makes me sad. I was so self-conscience of my weight that I was never really myself. I guess that sometimes holds true now, but I feel like I'm a little more comfortable in my skin now.... I just want to be CONFIDENT. That's never a word I'd use to describe myself, but it's something that I really would like--something I'm aiming for.  I'm gonna be cocky and a little bit mean here for a second: I think I have a good face. I think my face is beautiful, which is quite frankly something that not everyone has and it's something that can't be fixed. I just want the body to match it. Lucky for me, my shortcoming is fixable. It's not easy but I want it so bad that I'm willing to literally work my butt off for it. haha... get it? lol. (actually I like my butt, I just wish my stomach would go away.) I don't want to be stick thin. I like my curves. They just need to be a tad smaller. So, anyway. It's almost 12 which means its almost bedtime. Wish me luck, and goodnight =)

Monday, May 4, 2009

I'm not married, but I decided to make a blog anyway.

Remember in high school when xanga was the shizz? Before facebook, before myspace, it was all about xanga.I loved my xanga... I wrote in it every day. But no one has xanga anymore, they have facebook. But facebook doesn't really have a blog. Soo, blogspot is the new xanga I suppose. I usually try to keep up with the trends and subscribe to the newest websites (ie, twitter, which really doesn't make sense to me yet...) I guess that's just the comm major in me :P. But I didn't get a blogspot for the longest time cause I always felt like only married people did... So i was waiting to get engaged before I set up a blogspot, but that doesn't seem to be happening anytime soon... haha.... so here i am =)

i consider myself a pretty good writer and i have a lot of time on my hands lately (what with being unemployed =/) so this should be interesting.